Tag Archives: dark night of the soul

Anemone Crab

I see you my dear, in your designer shoes, your MBA hung around your neck, like an anchor to the status quo. Drug induced sleep is still sleep. Normal people have normal anxiety, normal unhappiness, normal quiet desperation, don’t they?

I see you weary prince, wearing your hurt like a mantle within your castle walls you pace, misery magnified in each lonely echo, drowning soft laughter floating in through windows too high to see.

I see you anemone crab, beautifully armed with the toxins of another, trapped within your soft shell, helplessly scavenging the debris for morsels decaying and dead. Eyes looking up at the endless blue wondering what floats above the waves.

No, it’s not fatal.

But.

 

 

Total Eclipse of the Moon

Forging ahead you seek the one who meets your eyes
Unadorned intensity empty of all disguise
The one who reads the meaning of your gaze
Who shares your path and stays unfazed

Standing still you wait for a star to guide your way home
The one who knows your heart and mirrors your mind with his own
Lost in the enchanted forest too tired to roam
The white rabbit on the dark side of the moon, you feel so alone

Shall We Dance?

I used to dance. I used to dream.
I used to laugh. I used to love.
I used to have a life until I found that I was asleep
Now I’m awake, and found that I’ve been dead.

A zombie haunting grey tombs of glass and steel
Wandering in colourless, tasteless, silent lovelessness
Parched, starved and weary
Bearing the torches of Should and Must
The flag of Indispensable proudly raised.
Futilely searching the inferno for the garden of Eden

Another meeting
Another day extinguished by mindless banter
Another annual report
Another year squandered on crap that doesn’t matter.

What’s the ending of this movie?
“Here lies my glorious youth, dreams dead in the water”?
Or “And they lived happily ever after”?

Shall we dance?

The Child and the Shadow

 

Shadow Play by Michael Hartford

The child was wary of the shadow, and so she tossed it into the basement and locked the door.

The shadow felt hurt and lonely and started to cry. He cried and cried and his voice echoed through the house haunting the night. Pretty soon the child saw shadows everywhere – in the closet, under the bed, on walls.

The child shut her eyes and stuffed her ears and hid under the sheets. She went “nah nah nah” refusing to hear the pleas of the shadow. Falling into a fitful sleep, she dreamt that the shadow crawled into bed with her and clutched her feet with his icy hands.

When night was deepest, she woke. Trembling but determined she stood at basement’s door. She drew a deep breath, pushed and turned on the light. Lo and behold, gazing back at her were her own scared and tired eyes.

Outside, dawn transformed the night and splashed the sky with red and gold.

The Cape of Storms

 

The Cape of Storms

A beautiful, haunting song from the Japanese movie Last Quarter of the Moon that explores attachment beyond the grave and trying to find one’s way in the shadows, tossed by the raging seas…  OK the diction is not great, because Hyde  (Haido) is a Japanese singer-song writer, but it is otherwise mesmerizing, and completely captures the feeling of being in the dark night of the soul….. The link to a YouTube video at the bottom of the page.

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up,
Lost in the raging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside

You’ll never notice
The colour of sin
Just as the storm clouds close in
It’s dark

Here in the shadows
I am pursued
Until the ends of the earth
Embraced

The ghost ship wanders far
For there is no guiding star
And this treasure has no meaning anymore

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up,
Lost in the raging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside

You know completely
The taste of sin
Melting sweet in your mouth
Like chocolate

A moment of pleasure
You are fulfilled
But every dream has its time
To die

The ghost ship wanders far
For there is no guiding star
And this treasure has no meaning anymore

Will this be my fate?

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up,
Lost in the raging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside

Click to view on YouTube: The Cape of Storms by Hyde