I talk-talk-talk non-stop
so that the hurt-hurt-hurt that lurk-lurk-lurks stays put in the shadow.
I check-check-check-check-check to make sure that
from the unnamed unseen dread of the unknown unformed threat.
from the “I” of long ago
the unloved unlovable mass of cancer in your womb.
A distance of 30 something years
Still no arms enfold me
No one cries at my tears.
I jive to my jitters,
Pace with my panic,
Tango the tension on tv
If I tremble, I tremble
with my comrades in terror
If I despair, only I despair
If I grief, I grief alone.
Mommy, why did you try to destroy me?
It’s because of my OCD?
Note: Please know that OCD, PTSD and other anxiety disorders can be alleviated with energy psychology techniques.